For those curious about my reasons for taking a break, I’ve crafted a list just for you…. (I revised this from 2014. Talk about procrastination. It still applies.) Usually, I make a vision board in the new year. As March is the New Year for Doc’s Castle Media, I’m sharing my vision for the year. It’s not a vision board, but a video and list which shares what prompts me to go on my many hiatuses and my vision for 2025.
Here’s my list…

Reason 1: The Media is Annoying
Being in the media has made me weary of it. I have a love-hate relationship with the news. Becoming the news has shown me a side of the media I can’t always respect. Everyone’s a critic, everyone’s nosy, and everyone’s chasing fame. There’s too much pressure on what’s true, while Doc’s Castle Media is just my commentary. Life has become about grabbing attention. It’s disheartening to see people change while seeking recognition, and I’m the middle person who has the power to influence that.
I want to write without hyperactive comments and concerns. I’m tired of the rush to cover stories and the hype of likes and views. I move at my own pace at Doc’s Castle Media. On my website, don’t bug me unless…$$$! Catch my drift?
Reason 2: Where is the Originality?
There’s a lack of originality. When I started blogging twelve years ago, I had it. Now, blogging is a new trend, like rapping, videography, photography, and other arts. I’m returning to the drawing board because everyone has a website, and we all do the same thing. But my website remains deeply personal because I want to do it MY WAY. Who else will write an article like this? Who else is going to dive into topics and discover the talents of other people like I do?! Returning from this hiatus, please expect more unique content. You, the viewers, will see my originality. It’s time to get a little delusional for my viewers and let you into how I see life in my safe place in my Castle.
Reason 3: Lack of Resources and Consistent Help
I’m frustrated by the lack of resources. I hate depending on others and waiting for their help. I dislike working in groups (I learned that in school and networking with other creatives). It seems like a neverending story waiting for others to do their part often leads to disappointment.
A lack of resources forces me to teach myself things I’d rather not do. I just want to write, man. Why must I teach myself graphic or web design, video editing, or photography so my website looks how I want it? A whole publication? It’s fine once I learn it, but it distracts me from writing.
“Invest in your craft,” people say. But who has the money to get off the ground? Not me! So, years were put into learning how to produce a real publication. I deserve flowers for the years I put into what I’m passionate about. I’m coming for my crown.
Reason 4: Am I An Impostor?!
Many creatives can relate to the struggle of getting out of our heads and bringing our visions into the world. We’re constantly searching for ways to make what feels natural to us resonate as “normal” for everyone else. This is my way of life—not the way of life, if you know what I mean—so when life throws challenges my way, finding inspiration to climb out of a rut can feel impossible. There’s no clear guide or set of examples to follow when navigating mistakes for the creative I want to be. It’s taking me a long time to discover my creative “normal.”
As I break free from impostor syndrome and step boldly into reality, I declare to the world: This is who I am. There’s no rule book for becoming the person I aspire to be. I’m ready to be unapologetically myself, to stop hiding the parts of me that I’ve spent years questioning whether they were “cool enough.” With over 4.5K supporters behind me, I realize that maybe I am a little cool. So, here’s to step out further, for myself and for anyone who’s rooting for me. I’m learning to embrace just how cool I truly am.
As you can see, my frustrations have piled up, and the negativity has made me reconsider my approach. A huge question is pressing on my mind, and I haven’t figured out the answer yet due to this built-up frustration with running my castle. But I press forward anyway, with ideas ready to spill out for everyone to see. As always, we’ll see where my creative journey takes me.
Watch me be:
Taylor, Doc, Alissa Fere ❤